Hello! What’s new in your world? Not much new for me, I am on terminal hold with my health insurance company, I’m sure you’ve heard me bitch about them before, but my calls are never under thirty minutes and usually forty-five to an hour. All to get those fuckers to pay for what they’re supposed to pay for. Oh, it’s painful. Blue Cross and Blue Shield of North Carolina, I’m not afraid to say publicly that YOU SUCK!!! Just pay the damn claims already! Ok. Rant done.
I had therapy today, I am still seeing my therapist from Colorado via Skype. It is just so damn comforting to see her! And guess what? I didn’t even cry once! :D :D :D That must be a record. She is so good at helping me focus on the positive, and on the desired behavior. I can get quite stuck in the mud, she helps me and encourages me to get moving.
Today I did something different at the start of my day. I usually have this very rigid morning routine involving drinking coffee, catching up on email, Facebook, trashy celebrity gossip sites, and then of course WordPress, and if I don’t get to do all of that I get VERY grouchy! Well, knowing how good the morning light is for a depressed person, I got up, got dressed and went for a walk across the street in the nature park. I put on my headphones and turned on a Deepak Chopra meditation. It’s a pretty snazzy app, there are a bunch of different soundtracks you can choose, as well as a bunch of different guided meditations. Then you set the timer for how long you want. I set it for twenty five minutes and off I went. Well!! All was going well until I encountered a part of the path that was under water, so I’m like, hey! I’ll just walk around the water on the grass. Well, the grass turned out to be a muddy bog that sucked my shoes off and I stepped right into the shit with my socks! Delight! So fuck it I retrieved my shoes and kept walking with a squish in my step. I ran into several more watery areas of the path, and I just held up the bottom of my sweatpants and walked right through them. Wet, wet, wet! What the fuck! I just kept repeating the mantra of the meditation, and the beautiful nature all around was a worthy consolation.
So while I was on with my therapist I made a list of things I’d like to try to do every day (I know I’m all over the place here, please roll with it). Here’s the list:
2) Read “What Color Is Your Parachute” (to try to figure out what the fuck I want to do as my next career)
3) Exercise (the magic formula that makes life better)
4) See something new
I will try doing all this shit for the next week and let you know how it goes. Please feel free to join me in my new regimen! Toodles, BPOF!
UPDATE: After ONE HOUR AND FORTY MINUTES on the phone with Blue Cross Blue Shield of North Carolina, I have some hopes that they will adjust the claim correctly, i.e. In-Network as opposed to Out-Of-Network, which equals me paying $0 vs $654. I really hope they do the right thing this time. It is RIDICULOUS how much time I have to spend fighting them to cover what they’re supposed to cover.