Well I went from absolutely nothin’ going on last week to EVERYTHING going on this week! I have to preface this by saying, I did one of those moronic new-agey affirmational asshole thingeys this weekend, I took a piece of art paper and my metallic gel pens and I wrote over and over in different colors across the page “Thank You” and I told myself “When you get your own apartment, you will hang this on the wall.” Well, fuck me.
There are Thank-You-Gasms going on right now. First, you may know that I applied for a $5000 grant from the local Workforce Center for some IT Training to get me out of godforsaken IT Support and into something more stimulating and might I say lucrative? Yes, I might. I walked into the Workforce Center last week and applied for the grant after two weeks of unanswered phone calls and emails. I filled out the application right there on the spot. The next day, I got another application, which I immediately filled out and returned. (I swear, sometimes I act like I have my shit together!). Now, I was told that this grant approval process would take around a month. So I hunkered down to wait for a response. Well shoot me in the finger was I full of shock and awe to receive my determination yesterday: I got approved for the funding!!!! So excited I don’t know what to do with myself.
And now ladies and gentlemen we pivot onto Axis B, whereupon I continued my obsessive apartment-hunting on Craigslist, while simultaneously acknowledging its futility. But then HELL-O! Here’s a one bedroom apartment under a thousand dollars a month and it doesn’t even look like the Roach Motel! It actually looks…kind of nice! Trying not to overthink it, I emailed the landlord. He replied with a Kiss of Death show time: Monday at 5pm. Now who in their right minds wants to drive to the next town at during rush hour? But somehow my higher self prevailed and I accepted.
I saw the place and I have to admit I “got the feeling” which is exciting because I haven’t had intuitive certainty for a long time. But I got the “this is it” feeling and the landlord kept sweetening the deal by dropping prices and offering flexible lease terms and I’m thinking, yeah, he has a hardon for me, this is good! So me, even with my credit score of zero, literally, zero, no credit at all, decided to accept his TransUnion request and fill it out, and I sent him an email and said look, I have this much income and this much savings, and I have a $5k grant and will be studying, and I’d really like the apartment. To my shock, (really I should have been spurting diarrhea), he responded and said yes, let’s go forward with the lease! And THAT, my friends, is how you get an apartment with a zero credit score and sketchy income! You get a MIRACLE!
So I went to see Dr. Drugs today and I told him “this is literally the best report I have ever brought to you” and goddamn it felt GOOD!! Like, here I’ve been feeling so stuck and what the fuck else can I do besides IT Support, and wondering for literally years if I will ever have my own home again, and then ker-SLAM in two days everything is *poof* solved. It’s a bit to drink in. So yeah, I am grateful! I am going to hang up my Thank You sign! I’m going to keep being grateful! Because the road from there to here has been a long one. And I couldn’t see my way out of it. But somehow the Universe has taken me by the hand and said here, I’ll help you get off your ass! You’re welcome! And so it is.