Don’t let the sun go down on me (oh wait let it!) — does that sound horny to anyone else?

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The sun was shining in my window and I had to take a seat in my comfy chair and, like a cat, just soak it up.  I don’t know what it is about me and Light.  We have a tenuous relationship.  Every November, Light asks for its space from me.  It says Hey, yeah, I’m gonna be away for awhile you’ll be ok without me, I’ll see ya on the flip side, and every year I FUCKING FLIP OUT WHEN THE LIGHT LEAVES!!!  Oh Mommy do I need the Light.  So, the “flip” has happened, we passed the solstice, thank you Jesus, Mary, Joseph, Grandma, Grandpa, and all of my other personal saints up there.  I am still kickin’.  The worst is over.  I think.  It was a little touch and go this year.  First hospitalization in more than 20 years.  What a fucking bummer THAT was.  But, very necessary.  So, here I am, strongly attending to every single day and its sunrise and sunset.  You know there’s actually a calendar for people like me, www.sunrisesunset.com.  It lets you make a calendar, with sunrise/sunset, moon phases, and day length.  For someone like me who is so damn light-sensitive and light-hungry, it’s a relief to see the days lengthening.  Someday I hope to be wealthy enough to travel across the world, from summer to summer.  That would be ideal for me.  Spring and summer light is ideal for this tortured brain.  Yes.  Let’s just say that that is a goal now.  Amen.

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