It’s been a rough day emotionally. I had therapy today and it never ceases to amaze me how I can bop in there full of reports about how my life is just going swimmingly, only to have these shadows rise from the depth of me and engulf me with their sadness and grief. Ahh yes, THIS is why I am in therapy! THIS is why I struggle. THIS is why I want to drink to numb myself out of existence! Just for tonight, (stopping for a sob or two) I am committing to NOT drink, but rather to feel, whatever needs to be felt. To walk through whatever needs to be walked through. To be there for myself, and be 100% authentic in the sadness and grief as it washes over me. Wash over and through me, let my tears cleanse me, and then be done for now.