The man who allegedly sent letters containing ricin to both the President and a member of the House of Representatives is bipolar, according to his ex-wife. He is bipolar, on disability, and not taking his medication. According to his ex-wife, he has an obsession with body parts and their disposal, or the issue of illegal trade in body parts. It’s so sad to me that this man, an untreated bipolar, has jumped onto the world stage to say “Hey! Look how crazy bipolar people can be!” In addition to that, in my own mind, I’m saying “Hey! Look how crazy you could be!” It scares me. I don’t have any illusions about taking medication, or not taking it. I don’t fantasize about the day that I’ll be able to not take medication. I value my stability too much, such as it is. Still, I’ve had a rougher-than-rough patch, and I fear “going crazy”. Some days I think I’m there.
Anyhoo, there’s a lot in the news of the last few days to give us pause. There’s murder, terrorism, fire, explosions, and every form of death and destruction imaginable. How do we keep our cores stable? What kind of mental pilates do people do to hold it all together? I know for me, this blog is a part of my regimen. So are reading other people’s blogs, regular therapy, exercise, talking to friends and spending time with friends and family. Even that blessed job adds structure to my days and distracts me. I welcome your comments and feedback on how the events of the week have affected you, what is working for you, what doesn’t work for you, what might work for you, what works on Tuesdays and Thursdays, what only works at 3 o’clock, etc. I pray that you enjoy a Happy Friday. Your ever-loving friend, Bipolaronfire. Fire! Fire!