When do I see Dr. Drugs again? I think I’m still depressed. Yesterday I was thinking about the inevitability of suicide. Not good! I was thinking I need to try to hold out until my parents have passed. Oh lordy me. I have Dr. Awesome today, I will have to talk to her about this. I just am still in my shell and don’t want to come out. In one way I want to get out and get more friends, and date, and in another way, I want to stay right here. What a conundrum. Is that the correct use of the word? I think so. Look, I don’t even feel like I’m in a particularly bad place, but this is what I’ve been thinking. Maybe I just have too much time alone to think. Ok gotta get to work, y’all have a good day. Peaches!