For the past three weeks I have been having ECT three times per week. Basically I go in and get setup with an IV. I have to fast all day. I am wheeled in to the ECT room and the ECT electrodes are placed on my scalp. Through the IV, anesthesia is administered (currently ketamine is being used). Then the shock is administered.
Is is working? I don’t think so. I have a terrible feeling of dread about going back to work. I have a major feeling that I am mentally encumbered by this process. Basically I feel totally dumb. I don’t know how long this will last or how I will manage to go back to work. I am very worried. I need to talk to my doctor. I’m going to bring it up today.
I’ve had twelve treatments, I think. Nothing good to report…see you for now BPOF.