There’s mixed emotions saying there’s no treatment today. I haven’t verified that there’s not a treatment today but I “think” the treatment is cancelled. My sister is cancelling it. My family has noticed that I am not functioning on all cylinders lately, I have really been negatively affected by the ECT. It has really affected me cognitively. Walking around my house, I have a hard time finding things. I don’t know where things go. I don’t know where things are found. I have a hard time with spelling. I am very, VERY worried about going back to work – how am I going to do it? How am I going to function? Yes. Very many minuses. Now you know I have a terrible crush on my doctor. TERRIBLE!!! Oh! I love him!!!!!! So no treatment means I don’t get to see my doctor! Jesus don’t let my family be reading these blog posts!!! I will really miss my doctor. If I don’t have a treatment today, I won’t have one for a long time. So I won’t see my precious doctor for a long time. This is a sacrifice. Why do I have to love him? Why why why????
UPDATE: Treatment cancelled. Oh I will miss my dear doctor!! Sadness sadness. It’s probably a good thing he doesn’t know how I feel about him.
Double Update: I am seeing a new therapist tomorrow. Woo! Scary. Soul-baring time, goodie.