I’m so embarrassed to say that my obsession for Dr. Sweetie continues. I think I could have stalker tendencies. It’s a good thing that a) I don’t know where he lives and b) I’m not permitted to drive right now anyway due to having had ECT. I wonder if I am not on the right drugs regimen, and that makes me obsessional? I am going to see Dr. Drugs on Monday, and I fully plan to address this. Holy GOD I hope he doesn’t think I’m so crazy that he hospitalizes me!! I would be so humiliated. If you don’t hear from me after Monday afternoon, you can make a safe bet that I’ve been thrown in the Looney Bin.
It’s a beautiful day today and I’m going to force myself to go outside for a walk, even though I don’t “feel” like it. It’s so hard to do the good things when you don’t feel like it! Damn it! I’m going to do it.
I love all of you for writing about how crazy you are when you are, it gives me such great comfort, and it gives me courage to tell the God’s Awful Truth here too. So, this is mine. I’m obsessed. Trying not to be with some forceful self-talk. Trying to read some books. Trying not to think too hard about my situation with being off work & having to go back soon, wondering how I’m going to do that, then freaking out. I’ve put the tv on a couple of times but it bores me to tears. Oh GOD how I miss the marijuana-abusing days!! I miss the comfort of oblivion, I miss it bad. Staying awake for life is mighty hard.
Oh!! I went and saw the movie “Ride Along” last night. I laughed and laughed. Kevin Hart is a kick in the ass!! This movie kept the action and the laughs coming throughout. Definitely worth seeing.
Hope you all enjoy a lovely day.