For the first time in two and a half months, I am DRIVING!!!!! Yeah!!! Oh it feels so good to be back behind the wheel!! I did what any woman would do on a Saturday, I went and got my nails done :). Yes that felt great too. Gorgeous pink tips and matching pink toenails. I’m alive again!!! Just to be out driving in Boulder, running my little errands, made me feel like a new person!! Thanks to Dr. BigHeart who said I could drive starting this weekend!! Dr. Sweetie had a different rule, I had to wait until the ECT treatments were two weeks apart. Dr. BigHeart was able to see that I have my head on straight now, and said I could go ahead and drive.
I went and checked my mail yesterday, and there was a bill from Boulder Community Hospital, which is where I was for my first two weeks of ECT with Dr. Sweetie. I about fell over at the total cost of my hospitalization, $55,000!!!!!!!!!! Of that I have to pay about $500. Thank God for insurance.
There was also a FedEx from my employer, letting me know that I’d used up my FMLA. They say they’re accommodating me with an extended leave of absence until February 17, my return to work date. AND there was a strange sentence in there saying “We will talk a week before your return date and determine if there is still a position for you.” Ugh. Sounds ominous.
I have been staying with my sister since I got sprung from the bin, but tomorrow I’m going to my own home to stay. My family is very worried about me being alone and isolated, since that contributed to my suicidal depression. I am going to have to find some activities to fill my time. There are tons of activities in Boulder for sober people, in fact there’s a whole club that does recreational activities. The club is called Phoenix Multisport and I figure since I’m technically sober and need to stay that way, this might be a good club for me. I will check it out this week. It’s going to be hard to “get out there”, but I need to force myself. Putting it out here makes me accountable, I promise to report back.
Hope you’re all having a smashing weekend, be good to yourselves!!! BPOF over and out!