Going Home Today

I have been staying with one of my sisters since I got out of the hospital on Thursday, but today I’m going to try going home.  Not sure how it’ll feel to be alone again . . . I hope hope hope that my suicidal ideation does not return.  The isolation is a trigger, I think.  I have to push myself to get out.

Tomorrow I go for a check-in appointment with Dr. BigHeart.  I will fast because we may or may not do a treatment tomorrow, depending on how he thinks I’m doing.  Do I need another treatment?  I don’t know.  I feel like I’m in a state of suspended animation.  I don’t really know how I’m doing.  I know I need to pay my bills today, that can be taxing on my psyche, since I don’t really know how much more money I will get from Short Term Disability, and I’m not sure that I have a job to go back to.  Maybe I’ll find out tomorrow after Dr. BigHeart writes a letter clearing me to return to work.

I have the Olympics on the tv…pretty inspiring!  How is your Sunday going?

 

UPDATE:  I’M HOME!!!!!!  What a feeling to come home.  I’m going to keep busy with unpacking all of my crap I have (lots & lots) and maybe do some laundry.  That feels like home, doing laundry 🙂   I also have the Olympics on the tv to keep me company, Comcast has an Olympics channel.  Sweet!!!

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