Well, hell. I went for my intake appointment for the DBT IOP. Took a couple of hours and I had to sign roughly six hundred forms. THEN I found out that the damn group isn’t at night MWF, it’s from 9am to Noon MWF!! How fuckin’ stupid is that? I mean really. SO I have to ask for another accommodation from my job to be able to attend this damn treatment. Dr. BigHeart really wants me to do it, and from the little bit I’ve learned so far, it sounds like a good fit for me. I really have some things about myself that I want to change and I think DBT could be just the ticket. So, I left a voicemail for my HR person asking if I could work a reduced schedule so that I can take this treatment. Dr. BigHeart says that my employer doesn’t have the option to can me, since I’m covered under the ADA (Americans with Disabilites Act). I hate like hell to ask for all this special treatment, but really what can I do? I don’t want to take nine more weeks off of work, the other option. I don’t think they’d go for that.
For the duration of the treatment, I am required to be sober. I have been booze and pot-free for a few months, but it really doesn’t suit me. I think I might have to go to some damn AA meetings to help me stay on the straight and narrow. Sobriety is so boring!! Sorry I am a terrible influence.
I have ECT tomorrow, the one thing I like about ECT is the feeling of going “comfortably numb” as the anesthesia kicks in. Yeah. Pitiful. But I speak the truth! I’ll see you all post-zap….have a GREAT evening! Peaches!