This damn medicine! It is turning me into a fat pig, but it’s also doing a little thing called “Keeping Me Alive“. I saw Dr. Drugs yesterday and he was so happy with my progress, he’s switched me from every-other-week to monthly appointments!! Yeah! I think I have lost some impulse control by stopping the Topamax, I really never experienced impulse control (especially when it comes to money) until I took Topamax. If I ever stop ECT, (Jesus it has to end sometime, right?) I may ask to go back on the Topamax. The other thing that Topamax really helped with was my urge to abuse substances. It really cut it down. Now I am really craving the marijuana. Dammit they just legalized it in this state!! I want to go to the mary store and see what they got. Resisting. Just for today, I will eat Butterfingers like a pig, and not abuse alcohol or marijuana. Just for today.
So friends…how are you?