After my last stint in the looney bin in late January/early February, I was “encouraged” to join a DBT Intensive Outpatient Program that lasted nine weeks, which I did. It was for three hours, three times a week. It was a very beneficial class, in that it teaches skills to use to defuse the emotionally-laden situations that Bipolars are known for. It’s especially beneficial (so they say) for those who suffer intense suicidal ideation, which is a motherfucker of an obsession that comes and goes for me.
Once the DBT IOP ended, I gave everyone in the class my phone number and we said “let’s get together and continue studying these skills” and that promise finally came to fruition tonight! I have to say, I am SO PROUD of the four of us who showed up! It was so productive, and supportive to talk about where we’ve been since we finished the IOP, what’s working for us, and where we’re struggling. I am just super-pleased with how it turned out.
Granted, we went on a lot of tangents, talking about drugs, illicit and otherwise, and other various experiences, like jail, suicide attempts, and being committed, but we managed to focus back in on what we wanted to work on without being too intense or nazi-ish. I am glad!
After spending all day turning my home into a super-deluxe showplace, it felt really good to relax and enjoy these people. And now I get to enjoy this shining clean house!
Tomorrow I will go for the old snap crackle & pop, my first ECT treatment in three weeks (the longest I’ve gone without a treatment since last December). Although I think I could have used one around Monday, I’m still happy that we’re successfully spacing them out further and further. It will be good to see Dr. BigHeart and all the staff there at the looney bin, the ECT Staff are pretty cool. I think I’ve done ok in the last three weeks, I’ve increased my social contacts (a struggle for me) and I’ve managed not to gain any more weight, YAY! Now if I could just go in the other direction.
See you all on the other side of the Zap! Yeahhhhhhh!!!