Well I had a Sizzle (ECT) last Friday and I told Dr. BigHeart that I absolutely had to go off the Clozaril. In addition to it being the world’s biggest pain in the ass to be on, (having to get blood drawn every single week, chasing after the lab to fax it to the pharmacy, picking up one week’s worth of pills every week), I also couldn’t stop gaining weight due to the pot-like munchies. Dr. BigHeart agreed to let me taper off. So I’m on a half-dose this week, then after that, finito! I’ve been a bit stuck in the mud this week, watching kind of a lot of shit tv and beating myself up for it. But tonight I have a DBT Group get-together at my house again (I think, I’ve been texting everyone and haven’t heard back except for one sorry) so I have to move around and spruce up the house today, and go to Trader Joe’s and pick up some snickety-snacks, because I AM the Hostess with the Mostest! I also need to get to the Library because I am out of reading material. So yeah, I have to leave the house and do things.
I went to Grill Night at this beautiful country nine-hole golf course last night called Haystack. Grill Night means they cook up a bunch of yummy shit on the grill and have live music, it’s a really fun summery thing to do. This is a picture, that’s Haystack Mountain. Isn’t it beautiful? You could smell the flowers from inside, it’s pure heaven. Hey, here’s an idea! ENJOY THE DAY. Yeah.