AFGE (Another Fucking Growing Experience)

Well chalk one up for Bipolaronfire and her stellar communication skills!  Here I thought that I could stay with my friend as long as I wanted, which in my mind meant the Spring.  Every time I tried to nail things down with her (can I help with the rent? Utilities?) she would brush me off.  Well today things got interesting!  She texted me (God knows we can’t talk in person) and asked me how long I planned on staying with her, letting me know that she had guests coming in January.  I offered to go stay in a hotel while she had guests in January, but her reply said she thought I was just staying with her a few weeks while I looked for a place of my own.  WOW!!  Talk about a misfire!  And I have officially overstayed my welcome!  Poor friend.  So here I have the dilemma:  Try to find a place to live here, which I think would be very lonely by myself, or head home to Colorado, which I KNOW will be very gloomy and cold?  Oh!  I would surely miss that damn beach!  We have become dear friends, the beach and I.  So I am simultaneously looking for places in Florida, and looking for places in Colorado.  What the fuck am I going to do?  My brain is swirling with the possibilities.  I think I need a more settled, stable life than this.  (The Universe laughs).

27 thoughts on “AFGE (Another Fucking Growing Experience)

  1. I overstayed my welcome quite a few years ago and it made me feel terrible! Try not to take it too personally, most people get kind of weird about their personal space at home, everyone has a limit. I hope you manage to figure out what course of action is best for you! I too am in love with the beach 🙂

    • Thank you so much!! I really just feel the need to have my own home again . . . try to balance that with loving Florida and the beach, yet being pretty lonely here too. And it has been a BITCH trying to get healthcare here. I just don’t know….don’t know. Thank you for your support though 🙂

  2. BPOF — not to be “that annoying person,” but have you considered doing a pro/con DBT grid on the matter? Can’t hurt, might help. :). Sending you good decision-making vibes!

  3. Come live with us and be my au pair!!!! We can eat Moose Tracks ice cream every night and get super-fat together LOL!!!!!!!!!

    You got some great comments here from my friend McKarlie & the DBT advice is worth doing! I’m sorry about what happened with your friend – I could see myself thinking the same thing as you did about assuming I’d be staying ’til spring. I don’t blame you for hating the freezing Colorado winter (just thinking about that freaks me out!) and the fact you had to be hospitalized there over the last two winters is sobering….. I wish I had the answer for you. 😦 Well, no matter what, sweetie, please go easy on yourself about all of this crap, take some more beach walks to mull shit over, and keep us posted on what you decide to do!

    Love you!

  4. I’ll cheer you along anyway you decide. The choice is entirely yours. But if I may have my two cents worth….. I vote stay!! If you have the finances to see you through. You have an extremely valid reason for moving to Florida. Don’t short-change yourself a view of the outcome, just because things are difficult right now. You are strong, vibrant and resilient. New things are meant to be difficult, so that you can grow with the experience. In the beginning you may be lonely, but you won’t STAY lonely…. Anyway, that’s one side of the coin for your pro/cons grid. My friend always says to me – whatever choice you end up making, it will always be the right one for you (depending on your life lessons/AFGE). I’ll be thinking of you xx

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