I’ve been eating on the left side of my mouth since last Wednesday, when the great dental bankruptcy experience began. Off came a bridge, out came a tooth, in went a silicone plug to aid healing, and then stitches. The instructions were, eat soft foods, only on the left side. Almost a week later, my jaw is sore. I guess from only eating on one side? Fuck if I know. I can think of much funner ways to get a sore jaw. (Cue Barbara Streisand singing Memorieeeessssssssss). DAMN I miss the perverted life I lived when I was manic!
Now I eat oatmeal, pudding and yogurt. I drink smoothies. I don’t even drink alcohol, since my epic New Year’s Day hangover. Yeah. I thought that Grey Goose didn’t give me hangovers. I guess half a bottle does. So the other half sits in my freezer, waiting for a lapse in judgment. I’ve got one marijuana lozenge left, then I’ll be back to total Straightsville. Sometimes it hits me: I really need a life!
I have a little more than a month left in Florida, then it’s back to Colorado. Back to family. Friends. Marijuana stores. And what else? I need to come up with a plan. I’m seeing the “Couldn’t Give Less Of A Shit” psychiatrist today, can’t wait! In the meantime I need to get to the beach and get a walk in. <———— Since this was written, the rain stole my hopes for a walk.
I don’t usually do this, but I’ve taken all day to write this shitty little post. And I have to say, I may have to re-think the part about the psychiatrist not giving a shit. When he was going over my bloodwork (required for the Clozaril) he noticed that my white blood cell count had gone up. This is just based on his remembering my count from a month ago. This is a guy who sees probably four clients per hour. Thirty-two clients per day. Six hundred and forty clients in a month. I have to say, I was floored!! He just remembered?? Even I had no idea…
I talked to the doc about doing TMS (Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation) instead of ECT. He said he could do it, but the initial treatment is five days per week for six weeks. That is not feasible since I’m only here for another month. So I guess I’ll just keep up the ECT maintenance treatments for now, and then look into TMS when I get back to Colorado. The big benefit of TMS is that no anesthesia is required.
I am going back to the dentist tomorrow, not sure what he’s going to do but I’m a very nervous dental patient. I’m going to try to get some exercise in before the appointment tomorrow. That, and meditation. We’ll see how it goes! Hope you’re all having a delicious week! Peaches!