There’s nothing like knowing something is coming to an end to make you grateful and mindful of what you have. I have a little less than two weeks left here in Florida and I am focusing on getting that time in at the beach and the sun. It is absolutely gorgeous here, deliciously hot, and I pack my backpack, grab my chair and walk the ten minutes to the beach nearly every day. Once there, I sit in my chair, often working on my What Color Is Your Parachute exercises, until I’m just boiling hot. Then I get into the water and swim out to the buoys (about 100 yards each way). It’s great exercise that leaves me somewhat exhausted.
Although it’s been a tough road being in Florida, it’s also been positive in so many ways. I’ve overcome more than I thought I ever could, and actually in some ways flourished. I will sorely miss that beautiful beach, the palm trees, springlike flowers, and wonderful heat. I’m sure I’ll be happy to be home with family in Colorado again, though. Counting the days . . .
This weekend, I saw dolphins for the first time since I’ve been in Florida. What a thrill!! I love those suckers. This was at Ft. DeSoto Beach, in case you’re wondering. I’ve been getting in as much beach time and sun time as possible, trying to enjoy the water and heat as it’s my last month here. Also, I want to return to Colorado with a tan. 😀 I’ve also been swimming quite a lot, both in the ocean and in the pool where I live. The ocean swimming has been quite good for my spiritual life, as I swim out to the buoys and back (300-400 feet offshore) I continually pray “God protect me” as there are no lifeguards where I swim. I’m a strong swimmer and there’s pretty much no record of shark attacks, but I still get a little paranoid.
My mood is pretty good, I think because I know I’m going home soon. How are you???
Last night, I had a very troubling dream. I was awakened by the touch of cold steel on the back of my neck – it was Jihadi John with an ax! I was terrified, and flailed about, but was immediately overpowered. And then it dawned on me – I was about to die! In my mind, I told myself that this life was over, and I needed to prepare myself for the next realm. As Jihadi John swung his ax, I woke up.
All day, I’ve been haunted. Not just by the terror that I felt, but at the almost immediate acceptance that it was my time to die. I was ready!
On further reflection, I see that my close family ties keep me bound to this earth, even when I don’t want to keep going, which is often. My love for my family, and their love for me, inspires me to try harder to do the things that I know are good for me, even when I don’t want to do anything. Although it’s been good in many ways to be in Florida for the winter, I am really looking forward to returning to Colorado in a month to be with my family again. I am very, very grateful to have such a loving and supportive family.
How are you? I hope you are all well. ❤