Haunted By Jihadi John

Last night, I had a very troubling dream.  I was awakened by the touch of cold steel on the back of my neck – it was Jihadi John with an ax!  I was terrified, and flailed about, but was immediately overpowered.  And then it dawned on me – I was about to die!  In my mind, I told myself that this life was over, and I needed to prepare myself for the next realm.  As Jihadi John swung his ax, I woke up.

All day, I’ve been haunted.  Not just by the terror that I felt, but at the almost immediate acceptance that it was my time to die.  I was ready!

On further reflection, I see that my close family ties keep me bound to this earth, even when I don’t want to keep going, which is often.  My love for my family, and their love for me, inspires me to try harder to do the things that I know are good for me, even when I don’t want to do anything.  Although it’s been good in many ways to be in Florida for the winter, I am really looking forward to returning to Colorado in a month to be with my family again.  I am very, very grateful to have such a loving and supportive family.

How are you?  I hope you are all well.  ❤

3 thoughts on “Haunted By Jihadi John

  1. I hate how a bad dream can stay with you into the waking hours, hard to shake sometimes. I’ve had some of the hardest days of my life the past couple of weeks, I was close to checking myself into hospital a couple of days ago. Keep on truckin BPOF!

    • Oh honey I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been having such a bad time!! It’s terrible when you start thinking you need to check into the hospital 😦 Anything I can do to help?

      • Yeah it’s life right on the edge when you feel like that, bloody exhausting lol my relationship went right to breaking point again and I felt defeated for a bit but I’m on the up now thank you love. Let us both find this weekend brings us unusually happy moods and peaceful dispositions

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