Wow, it’s been five days and I’m still the Snot Queen! Yahoo! It’s good to be Queen. Oops. No. Not of snot. Well what the hell is going on? I am sweating this new insurance I had to buy with the new year. Am I insured? Yes. Or maybe no. It depends on who you ask. This is not very reassuring since I have prescriptions that are running out tomorrow and the refills would cost me oh, around $900 without insurance. Yep. That’s for generic fucking Abilify. I told you that drug is my nemesis!! It’s a devil drug company, but the shit actually works pretty good. One of the few mood stabilizers that doesn’t have me eating the kitchen table, so I like it. That, and I have a modicum of creativity back. How the fuck do these things work? How do so many of them steal the muse, and then one doesn’t? It’s really a mind-fuck to me. Are we just ultimately a set of chemical cocktails? I tend to think so. And my cocktail is good right now, baby. Don’t fuck with it! That’s what I’ll say to Dr. Drugs next week when I see him. He is a fan of the “tweak”, whereas I am much more “If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it!” This is why we lock horns. Sooner or later I fear he may fire me for being such an ass-pain. In the meantime I’m gonna fight! For the right! To funnnnnnnnnction!
On the weather front, I’d say it’s between suck and suckaroo with about five inches of snow today. Driving is..an..adventure with snowpacked roads and assholes with four wheel drives (I have a four wheel drive but in this one case I’m not an asshole) trying to pass on two lane roads if you’re driving cautiously. I guess it’s time to go sit in front of the therapy light again and dream of warmer climes…nothing wrong with a little fantasy, right? Hunky hunks and warmer climes are what I want! All in good time….
Hope your day is fantastico, filled with good drugs, good human connections and a general lack of assholes! Peach out!