Done Playing Mommy And Other Miscellaneous Shit

Dad handkerchiefs

Well my sister has returned and my Playing Mommy has come to an end. Being with the kids, nurturing them, just sitting with them as they went about their free time has been a joy.  What I am truly grateful for is that my mood held up – I didn’t lose my patience with them or get angry as I feared I might.  I was a loving and tolerant Aunt.  Oh how I hope that this is how they remember me when they grow up!  Only time will tell.

Another thing that has brought me great joy lately is the return of my creativity. I have always been a creative person, but I lost the creative spark for about a year and a half to two years.  I attribute this to both depression and Clozaril.  As soon as I went off the Clozaril and switched to Abilify, *poof* the creativity came back.  About fifteen years ago, I embroidered some handkerchiefs for my Dad, which he loved and was very proud of.  For the past few years, I’ve wanted to do it again, but couldn’t quite pull it together.  Finally, last week, I bought some handkerchiefs and embroidery thread and let ‘er rip and it has been so damn fun to do this for Dad’s upcoming 83rd birthday.  Granted, they’re not perfect.  I had to trace the designs from my computer screen onto the handkerchief with a pencil.  But, I still love them and I made them with love (and lots of very anal stitching) and I hope my Dad loves them.  You only see five here, I am working on the final sixth.  I will be so sad when it’s all over!!!  What will I do next???  It has been SO GREAT to have a project!  This just reinforces to me how nurturing the creative process is to my spirit.

If you’ve been reading for a few posts then you know that I had applied for a part-time job with a psychiatrist and wondered if I got the job. I got one call from her which I returned, then never heard back again.  Well, I heard from her over the weekend, apparently she never got my phone message.  Strange!  She does want to work with me (Yay!) but not for a couple of weeks (Boo!).  We’ll see how it all shakes out.  She is not striking me as the most dependable person but hopefully I am wrong about that.

Well, that’s about all the new from the Bipolar On Fire Ranch in Boulder, Colorado. Yee Haw!!  What’s going on in your neck of the woods?


19 thoughts on “Done Playing Mommy And Other Miscellaneous Shit

  1. Congrats on the job! I hope it does work out for you. Yes, some pdoc’s are a little nuts themselves, but I think you may be able to work with that. Hell, think of all the great posts it may give you.

  2. So excited for you on the job prospect! I wish you the best on that front. I would love to work in a psychiatrists office. I love your handkerchiefs also! It reminds me of when I was little, I would embroider pillowcases. I don’t quite have the eye sight or hand strength to do that anymore, but it inspired me to drag out my jewelry making stuff. 🙂

  3. The fact that the doctor has reached out to you several times is excellent! I hope you get the job. If you don’t, don’t be sad, just move on to the next opportunity, it might be even better!

  4. Congrats on the psychiatrist wanting to work with you – I KNEW she would! And I love your fantastic creativity and beautiful gift for your Dad’s 83rd birthday – of course he will love them!!!!!!

    You did a great job with your sister’s kids – that’s a huge triumph! I’m thrilled you’re going for it in all kinds of ways. You’re a special gal, I adore you, and because of all this good news I’ll only post just one…

  5. Awesome news, Super-Aunt! Congrats on the prospects of the new job. I know all too well the feeling of depression and medication stealing creativity. I’m so glad yours has returned, I know that’s got to be a great feeling!

  6. I have also had quite an upturn in the creativity department, although it’s possibly my yearly Spring hypomania, trending upward into mania (haha!), but I get it, man. Like I have had very limited creativity or interest in really anything for the past long while and now I have been a Pinterest fool and doing a lot of Googling. It’s turning out well though, a lot of new projects. I get what you mean about being sad when a project ends, but I think it just means you need to take up another one. If you can embroider or do any kind of needle arts, then maybe go pick up an inexpensive something-or-other you can needlepoint or cross stitch onto a pillow or frame for gifts for Christmas or birthdays. Let your wallet be the only thing that limits you…you have a very beautiful mind, put it to use! ❤

    • Thank you for the inspiration!! I DO need to keep going, it makes me so happy to have a project to work on!! My sister just bought five yards of fabric so that I can recover her outdoor chair cushions, so there’s that for now 🙂 Should be fun.

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