Well my sister has returned and my Playing Mommy has come to an end. Being with the kids, nurturing them, just sitting with them as they went about their free time has been a joy. What I am truly grateful for is that my mood held up – I didn’t lose my patience with them or get angry as I feared I might. I was a loving and tolerant Aunt. Oh how I hope that this is how they remember me when they grow up! Only time will tell.
Another thing that has brought me great joy lately is the return of my creativity. I have always been a creative person, but I lost the creative spark for about a year and a half to two years. I attribute this to both depression and Clozaril. As soon as I went off the Clozaril and switched to Abilify, *poof* the creativity came back. About fifteen years ago, I embroidered some handkerchiefs for my Dad, which he loved and was very proud of. For the past few years, I’ve wanted to do it again, but couldn’t quite pull it together. Finally, last week, I bought some handkerchiefs and embroidery thread and let ‘er rip and it has been so damn fun to do this for Dad’s upcoming 83rd birthday. Granted, they’re not perfect. I had to trace the designs from my computer screen onto the handkerchief with a pencil. But, I still love them and I made them with love (and lots of very anal stitching) and I hope my Dad loves them. You only see five here, I am working on the final sixth. I will be so sad when it’s all over!!! What will I do next??? It has been SO GREAT to have a project! This just reinforces to me how nurturing the creative process is to my spirit.
If you’ve been reading for a few posts then you know that I had applied for a part-time job with a psychiatrist and wondered if I got the job. I got one call from her which I returned, then never heard back again. Well, I heard from her over the weekend, apparently she never got my phone message. Strange! She does want to work with me (Yay!) but not for a couple of weeks (Boo!). We’ll see how it all shakes out. She is not striking me as the most dependable person but hopefully I am wrong about that.
Well, that’s about all the new from the Bipolar On Fire Ranch in Boulder, Colorado. Yee Haw!! What’s going on in your neck of the woods?