It’s time. IT’S TIME! Mama, it’s time! (Stealing a little bit from Steel Magnolias). Yes it’s time. It’s about DAMN TIME I update this blog. Jesus Christ does the time fly! Here it is MARCH already! YAYYYY and only eleven days until we Spring Forward into Daylight Savings Time! Mama Mia I have sailed through this winter without any of the usual Winter Blues! THANK YOU, DR. DRUGS!!! He added just a baby dose of Zoloft to my regimen, and it’s made all the difference!!
Well I have become a goddamn SLUG at updating this blog, and I’m sorry. It’s a reflection of the fact that I now have a life, plain & simple. I had a good three years of not much to do, and now I have wayyyy so much to do. I am still working for Dr. Flaky, which is going fine, I might even have to change her name to Not-As-Flaky, but I dunno, I’ll think about it. I go to my Mom & Dad’s two days a week and act like a maid (tired of that but they pay me and last I checked I still need the money). AND AND AND I have taken my first class in Computer Security and I am studying like MAD for the certification test!
I have to say, at the grand old age of 50, I was damn scared that I wouldn’t be able to learn the material, and scared that it would be beyond my comprehension, and I’m happy to report that neither of these fears have been realized! I CAN learn, and I CAN understand!!! What a revelation! AND, I can apply myself! Rather diligently! In fact, the answer to my rampant pot use (and subsequent eating everything in the apartment) it turns out was just that I needed something to occupy my time, and now I have it. And, this is so nerdy, y’all, but I have to say, I much prefer having all this studying to do to all the free time spent getting stoned & watching tv. There! I said it! I am actually ENJOYING studying my ass off and learning this shit. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? It’s hard for even me to grasp. But it’s a gigantor blessing, and I’m embracing it and studying the fuck out of it. I hope to take the certification test in about a month. My next class is April 10. Now if I can just keep from running out of money before I finish all this shit, I’ll be happy.
After working in IT Support for over twenty-five years, and getting colossally burnt out on it, and then spending three years in Disability-limbo, and feeling disabled by my Bipolar, this has been a very exciting and empowering process. I thought my story was ended, basically, but here, we have a new chapter. And to me, that’s exciting, and I’m very grateful for that. So, there’s hope! I guess it ain’t over until you’re in the ground! Good for me to remember. Because I had stuck a fork in myself and said “Done”.
Hope you’re all doing well out there in the blogosphere, I will try to catch up on you too. I have been surreptitiously reading some of your blogs, but haven’t commented lately. I am reading though! Take care, friends, and holla if you want below . . .