Job Search Blues

Great news!  I didn’t die on my hike!  It was so…fucking….hard…and so…fucking….steep!!!  I didn’t make it all the way up the mountain and that is ok with me.  My niece and I made it about a quarter of the way and went back down, thoroughly exhausted.  It was hot as hell, too.  We waited at the bottom for my sister and her two kids, who did the whole hike up to the hidden lakes.  I feel good for what I did and glad I didn’t push myself beyond what I could do, because coming down was just as hard as going up.  Did I tell you how hard it was???  It was a BEAR!!

So now I am home and back to reality and my reality BITES.  I am looking for a job hot & heavy and I’m finding that many prospective employers want two supervisory references and guess what??  I can’t provide two!!  WOW just as I am writing this I had a brainstorm that I can provide Dr. Flaky and Dr. HasHerShitTogether BAM two supervisory references!!!  Other than those two I have not gotten along with my supervisors.  I tell you, Authority Issues should be my middle name!!!  (Thank you, Dad).  Whoa I feel better now that I thought of Dr. HasHerShitTogether!!!  I think that problem is solved!!!

I still am having a problem with WILLINGNESS to get a job, i.e. I don’t have it.  I know I NEED a job and I NEED money but I sure don’t WANT to get a full-time job.  I honestly don’t know how I am going to do it!!!  I don’t feel like I have the strength or stamina to work a full-time job, yet I don’t feel like I have a choice, either.

I came home to find the baby birds had GROWN in two and a half days and they have a lot more feathers and they seem more alert.  I am talking to them a lot, they better get used to me talking to them!!  They are cuter than shit and I promise to get out the good camera and try to get a pic!

My birthday is tomorrow, I’ll be 51 years OLD!!!  I can’t believe it.  I wish I could roll the years backward.  I’m going to my parents to work.  BOO!!!  But I need the money.

Hope you are all well and happy.  Peaches….BPOF!

4 thoughts on “Job Search Blues

  1. Thinking of you, sweet one, and here’s wishing you a ****wonderful*** b-day tomorrow despite the worries and biting reality!

    So stoked the birds are thriving and I’m looking forward to photos of them!
    Speaking of birds, I retweeted this post! 😉 Of course.
    XOXOXOOX
    Dr. Lazy Ass

  2. Happy Birthday 🎈Perfect job would be part time with flexibility. Check out

    I had to bow out of a hike on Sunday. Anxiety. Asthma. Proud of you for doing what you could.

    Check out SSA’s Ticket to Work: https://www.ssa.gov/work/.
    You might qualify for ADA 504 accommodations. https://www.ada.gov
    Have you looked into getting a disability lawyer? You might find one using National Disability Rights Network at http://www.ndrn.org/en/about/paacap-network.html

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