I Got The Job?!?!

Nobody is more shocked than me, but I got the Security job.  Yeah.  That one where I bombed the interview.  Don’t ask me how, I don’t know.  Maybe it was my heartfelt-and-somewhat-pitiful thank-you note after the interview.  I am completely floored.  How did this happen?  It might be God.  But the rollercoaster ride isn’t over yet!  I still need to pass a background check.  I have Bipolar and ADD.  There might be things I don’t even know about that will bite me in the ass.  Who knows?  I am sort of crossing my fingers.  I say “sort of” because I have such mixed feelings about taking a full-time job.  How in the fuck am I going to do this?????  I do not know.  All I can say is I’m going to have to take it day-by-day.

I will write an update once I hear whether I passed the background check or not.  Then there’s the drug test.  I’m less worried about that, since it’s been fifty-plus days since I used pot.  In the meantime I am enjoying the slow pace of my days, and my last days at my parent’s house being the maid.  I am worried about what Mom and Dad will do without me.  I have to let that go.  So much letting go . . .

I’d love to hear from those of you who work full-time – how do you do it???  Hope you are all well.  Love, BPOF

26 thoughts on “I Got The Job?!?!

  1. I am sooo proud of you. I’ve been quietly following your journey and marvel at your courage and bravery. I doubt I could have gone to so many interviews. Its one of the reasons I’ve stayed in my dead-end job for so many years.

    How to work full time? I won’t lie. Its difficult. But if you put enough structures in place you WILL cope. Sleep is VITAL. I can’t stress this more. I sleep no less than 10 hours a night. Sometimes I get home, climb into bed, set the alarm for 7pm. Sleep a few hours and wake up to eat dinner. Then back to bed. But those times are the exception to the rule. All this sleep makes for a poor social life. But we require lots of sleep to stay healthy.

    Diet is huge. You have to eat properly. If you don’t, your immune system gets run down, you get sick and that triggers a myriad of our wonderful bipolar symptoms. I shouldn’t talk because I’m terrible with this! For me, chocolate is a food group…

    Keep an eye on your anxiety and stress levels. Anxiety = adrenaline = hypomania. So be aware of your body’s reactions, and take something at work if you need to. Carry a little ‘first aid kit’ in your handbag. I have found this avoids disaster.

    And the most boring tip of all… routine, routine, routine. Zzzz. Definitely hazardous to any social life. But it helps keep me stable. I’m talking about what you do as soon as you arrive home from work. Your evening has to be structured, eating at the same time, time to unwind from the day (very important to combat over-stimulation from the day), going to bed at the same time ect.

    I know you’re going to ace this. The challenges you have gone through from getting your own place, studies and interviews. Remember, we may be from different parts of the world, but I am working right alongside you. I am only an email away if you need to vent, rant, need a pick me up or some advice (piecesofbipolar@yahoo.com). Seriously, email anytime.

    The reality is we are disabled working amidst ‘abled’ ordinary folk. It can be tough. You’ll have your good days, and bad. But I’ve been at my current job for 17 years. It’s hard work staying healthy. But if you work within the limits of bipolar, you’ll manage. Look what you’ve achieved so far. I bet you never thought you could when you first embarked on this job-journey. You are a force to be reckoned with. Go get ’em BPOF. So proud of you xx

  2. Congrats! I only work P/T but I agree that sleep, keeping emergency meds with you, food, and a routine are important. Also be gentle with yourself on the time you have away from work. Do something exclusively for you once a day, it helps.

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