Nobody is more shocked than me, but I got the Security job. Yeah. That one where I bombed the interview. Don’t ask me how, I don’t know. Maybe it was my heartfelt-and-somewhat-pitiful thank-you note after the interview. I am completely floored. How did this happen? It might be God. But the rollercoaster ride isn’t over yet! I still need to pass a background check. I have Bipolar and ADD. There might be things I don’t even know about that will bite me in the ass. Who knows? I am sort of crossing my fingers. I say “sort of” because I have such mixed feelings about taking a full-time job. How in the fuck am I going to do this????? I do not know. All I can say is I’m going to have to take it day-by-day.
I will write an update once I hear whether I passed the background check or not. Then there’s the drug test. I’m less worried about that, since it’s been fifty-plus days since I used pot. In the meantime I am enjoying the slow pace of my days, and my last days at my parent’s house being the maid. I am worried about what Mom and Dad will do without me. I have to let that go. So much letting go . . .
I’d love to hear from those of you who work full-time – how do you do it??? Hope you are all well. Love, BPOF