Well I am back in the groove of looking for a job. I have contacted three people who had previously contacted me regarding jobs (I had said I had a job) and one of them so far would like to setup a phone interview for Monday. YEAH!! It’s not exactly what I want to do, but it’s a Security-related company, so it’s going in the right direction.
I’m still very, very down about this whole situation, and I slept like shit. I got obsessed in the middle of the night with the idea of suing this contracting company for lost wages and pain and suffering, and I got so worked up that I had to get up for awhile. Interrupted sleep is not good for us people with Bipolar, as you know, so I’m feeling a bit fragile today. But I am determined to spend the day looking for another job, so I can go into the weekend feeling like I have some new irons in the fire. UPDATE: After a couple of hours, my willingness is flagging. I have applied for *one* job. Oh holy angels, help me! I just tried to apply for a Desktop Support job, and when I got to a question about why I am uniquely qualified for the job, I just said “fuck it” and closed the window. Should I start drinking now???
I don’t know why life is testing me like this, and why things can’t just be smooth, I guess it’s just how life goes sometimes. But I am NOT joyful. I need to just focus on moving on, NOT on suing the contracting company. I don’t want to get caught up in all of that negativity and stress. That’s just something my frustrated brain came up with in the middle of the night. I think about Hustler, and how grateful I am that I didn’t get that job, and maybe someday I’ll be grateful that I didn’t get this job, because there’s something better out there for me. That’s what I’m hoping for.
Hope you all had a good week. Fall is here in Colorado, it’s supposed to get chilly and rain all weekend, bleh! Peach out homies! BPOF!