I Survived The Week!

Wow, what a week it has been!  I spent roughly three hours per day commuting to Downtown Denver every day last week to my new contracting job as a Deskside Analyst. I started the job with a terrible head cold.  I was blowing my nose constantly all week.  (I’m still not better).   What a total drag!!!  I was so exhausted at the end of every day, I was too tired to eat dinner.  I just went to bed.  Then it was back up at 4am to start all over again.  I don’t know how I did it, and I don’t know how I’m going to keep doing it.

The people at the job are very nice, which is a plus.  I got to find out just how rusty my Desktop Support skills are, which was not joyful.  Four years away from the field is a long time.  I’m worried about coming across as a doofus.  Anyhoo, I did my best.  I replaced between thirty and forty hard drives in laptops, reimaged them and encrypted them.  That’s the bulk of what I did.  I also did some setups of computers for new employees, which involved shlepping equipment around different floors of the building, and crawling under desks in my dress, reminding me exactly why I hated the field of Desktop Support so much.  It was a real downer and I don’t know what to tell myself about where I’m at, except this is where I’m at!  This was the only job I was offered and I had to take it.  It kind of sucks to be me right now but for some reason this is what life is offering me so I have to make the best of it.  I wish I knew why life has to be so difficult sometimes.

As usual, my paranoia kicked in, which always happens in jobs.  I get paranoid that I’m going to get fired.  So I was paranoid that I wasn’t making the grade, or that I didn’t fit in with the team well enough, and I thought that at any minute the boss was going to tell me to head home because it wasn’t working out.  Fortunately, that didn’t happen.

I am sooooo happy to be back to the weekend, home with my birds.  I slept a healthy twelve hours, and it was nice to wake up to daylight, instead of waking up in the dark.  I drank a ton of coffee, which I can’t do during the week because of my long commute (I can’t risk needing to pee in the middle of the commute).  I am going to have a long, lazy day, and at some point I will brave the always-crowded grocery store.  Other than that it’s just rest & relaxation.  Tomorrow I will go see Mom and Dad, as usual.

Mom wants me to move in with them, because it would shorten my commute.  One thing is for sure, when my lease is up on May 31, I’m not extending it.  But where I will go, I don’t know.  I think moving in with my parents would be the ultimate downer, I mean ULTIMATE!!!!  But this job is only guaranteed until July, so moving closer to it doesn’t necessarily make sense.  Plus, I don’t even want to do this job that long!!  But will I have to??  There are lots of unknowns.  But here is a known:  I get to talk to my parents about whether or not I should move in with them tomorrow.  That should be fun.

Oh, by the way, I didn’t get that job I was hoping for.  BIG DRAG!!  I got the fuck off letter this week.  Apparently they went with an internal candidate, my friend who works there tells me.  So I am stuck with this commute indefinitely.  Lord help me.

I hope you all had a great week, please let me know how you are in the Comments.  I love hearing from you!!  Peach out!

14 thoughts on “I Survived The Week!

  1. Well, first off, as I tweeted, I’M SUPER-PROUD OF YOU for getting through the past week! I’m impressed with all your job duties and you are one brilliant gal, even if you’ve been away from the field for 4 yrs, so please don’t think that you’re anything but smarty pants.

    Sorry about your shitty cold – UGH!!!!!!! I hope it’s gone by tomorrow because the lovely spring that is NO time for you to be sick, Ms. Springy Sunshine ‘N Rainbow Unicorns!

    At least the people @ work are nice – you and I both know it could be waaaaaaaay worse! The Hustler office, anyone? (Was it Hustler? I can’t recall!)

    It sounds like you’ve done a great job, especially since you had the damn cold & crazy-long commute on top of everything else. I’m really sorry that you didn’t get the other job.I’ve had the same thing happen ( “They went with an internal candidate” and it sucked. :(((( As far as moving in with your parents goes, do whatever you need to do to make it the easiest for yourself.

    And remember, everything is temporary! Even if you were there with them as a stopgap measure for just a short while, it’s good to know you could!

    Sending you lots of love, sweetness. Not much going on today except tedious chores like laundry, but at least it doesn’t take 4 freakin’ days like it used to (Yes, according to a Victorian-era reality show!)

    You’re amazing.
    Take it easy tonight!!!!!!!
    Keep on truckin’ – better ***everything*** will happen to you…I know it.
    Lady Dy

    • Thanks for the wonderful support, DyDy!! It’s hard to keep this all in perspective and just tell myself that it’s temporary since I don’t see any other options on the horizon. But sometimes things show up out of the blue when you least expect them. Anyhow, I always appreciate your comments ❤️❤️❤️

  2. Congratulations on making it through the week! I hope you feel better soon.

    Like the previous commenter said, everything is temporary. If living with your parents makes your commute easier, then by all means, go for it! Plus, think of the money you’ll save on rent. It should be enough for a security deposit for your nex apartment once you know your plans in July! 🌻😊

  3. Nothing to report. I just felt compelled to tell you how much I love hearing from you. What a week! Glad you got some rest.

  4. Although I know living with your parents can suck big time, but perhaps you guys need each other now. It wouldn’t be easy, but it may make sense. Sorry you didn’t get the job you wanted and that you hate the job you got.

    Try being kind to yourself. Try rewriting those negative paranoid thoughts. Not easy, but repeating that exercise, writing the negative thoughts down and then writing an opposing view, helps you to break that habit of negative rumination.

    I wish you the best. I had to move in with my parents at different times in my life as an adult. I’m still standing (actually, I’m typing while lying in bed, but you get the metaphor).

  5. 30 to 40 hard rives in a week !! my god I bet they LOVE you ! Shame about the commute but… its the only crappy thing about this job that I can see..and the fact that its desktop support not security..but you;ll get there… and the ‘waiting to be sacked’ feeling..I get that too..although I swing wildly between thinking I know nothing to thinking I know everything and should run the company 🙂 I have never moved back in with my mum since I left 41 years ago…don’t worry.(easier said than done I know :)..you’ll find something. When you were in your sisters basement you thought you’d never get out but you did..when Dr Flaky was driving you nuts you thought you’d never get all the work straight..but you did… so who knows .. sending you lots if love jen x

    • Wow you have a good memory for things I’ve said over time!! Thank you for that perspective!!! I just need to hang out with this for awhile I guess…thanks so much for what you said!!! You are great, Jen!!! I wish we could go out for coffee 😘

      • me too 🙂 wish we could work together :))) that would be a laugh 🙂 One day I will make it to Bolder and we’ll have that coffee :0

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