…And it continues!

So, I REALLY want to stop functioning.  Like, REALLY!!!!  I want to quit this job and say “Fuck the world”.  The only thing that keeps me from doing it, and I know this is pansy-ish (or is this what holds everyone together?) is that I don’t want to move!!!!  I really love where I live, it’s a somewhat posh house, very expensive rent, and no job=no house.  I can’t bullshit my way around and say “I’ll make the money some other way – I won’t.  It’s a lot of money.  God DAMN this fucking capitalism and all its little claws that keep you sucked in!  I swear to GOD I will throw it all out and buy me an RV and just drive around this fucking country!!!  But there again….I worry….without the moorings…the familiarity of home and family…will I be ok?   Or will I just be fucking myself over?  Oh dear Lord is this just the ranting of a crazy bipolar woman?  I don’t know.

Bipolar Bitches Anonymous Volume II is Now In Session!

“Oh Performance Review you son of a bitch you have no power over me!”  I hurl as I chew my second piece of marijuana candy of the day, contemplating vodka.   What is it with these fucking workplaces, anyway?  Ya go there and do a job, in this case, I do a job I hate, it’s a shitty job but I do my best, which on some days is pretty damn good and on other days it’s not jack shit.  Well I guess that’s why I got an overall rating of Satisfactory.  3 out of 5 points.  To me that says “you’re barely cutting it.”  Even though I hate the job and I think the workplace sucks, it’s still a bitter pill to swallow.  I have always been a top performer at my job, always been rated “Exceeds expectations” – so to be told that I’m just “meh” – well I have to say I took it personally and it’s kind of knocked me off my rocker.  I think I’ll just have one small drink….let’s all get our bitch on shall we?

 

My Five Faves

Trippy Vase Pic

So…one of my fave bitches asked me to post five of my favorite bipolar blogs.  This is such a great idea, I’d like to ask ALL OF YOU to do the same, and post a link here in the comments to YOUR blog posting so we can go and look and see all kinds of new blogs that we’ve been missing!  I looooove reading the blogs but I do get in a rut of just going to the Reader and looking at blogs tagged “Bipolar”.  So creative and intuitive I know.  I’d love to compare lists!  Here are mine, in no particular order . . . oh by the way…Happy VD People!!!

Broken Light:  A Photo Collective (includes other mental illnesses, be flexible)

What’s Broken

Bipolar, Unemployed and Lost

my obvious little secret

Crazy Jay – The Ultimate Chameleon! “A spark of genius quenched in misery.” Unmedicated and Unrestrained!

P.S.  —  I just realized I’m trying to start a chain letter!  I totally bust myself!!!!!  Oh well let’s still do it!!  Ok ready set go!  First one there gets a tuna san!

Bipolar Bitches Anonymous Vol II

This is why I hate my job.  We work on a work order system and we get many, many more work orders every day than we could ever hope to complete.  Our employer, being cheap fucks, will not staff our department appropriately so we just struggle along.  Yesterday was a prime example.  Email from bitchy woman:  “I need your help right now, this is affecting my work.”  Me:  “Here’s a document that should help you do what you are trying to do.”  (I have 57 work orders and she’s #55).  Bitchy woman:  “I need you to come resolve this right now.”  Me:  “I can’t resolve this right now but I’m hoping you can follow the documentation for a resolution.  We have a strict first-in-first-out policy on tickets and we receive much more work every day than we can accomplish.  I won’t be able to get to your ticket until sometime next week.”  Bitchy woman:  “You better come to my desk right now.”  The BITCH in Bipolar Bitches Anonymous is rising like a genie from a bottle and threatening to float all the way to North Carolina to STRANGLE this woman!!  I’m sorry but the most rational thing to do in this situation would be to grab my purse, leave a note that says “Fuck this job!” and RUN not walk to the nearest bar.  The UNNATURAL thing to do is to keep working through such a taxingly shitty situation.  Woo!  Look at the time!  This bitch better go get in the shower & get ready for work.  *Sob*

Bipolar Bitches Anonymous Vol. I

AUNT CAROLLE'S WALL OF HAIRLadies this is a new segment for us to hopefully talk and vent about what we go through being BBA’s.  I know for me in addition to being the hottest bitch in any room, I may often be the biggest bitch in the room.  Ta-tum!  Ok!  Anyhoo that is true but also funny.  You will see that is what I am like.  Well I am an extreme, including extremely sweet and sour.  So consequently I pull people in with my mesmerizing looks and sweet sugar kindness, and then KAFOOM MOOD CRASH I am sour and I am Missy Pissy don’t wanna talk I hate my fucking job why can’t everyone stfu (my customers), etc.  This is what I subject my loved ones to.  And myself.

BBA’s, don’t be shy, share yourself & your dilemmas.  Like they say, “We got this bitch!”