Whelp, I didn’t think I could do it. Seriously. I didn’t think it was going to happen. I cried. I prayed. I studied my ass off. But I didn’t think it was enough. Well guess what? Sometimes the Universe hands you a little miracle in the form of a PASS! And I PASSED the Certified Ethical Hacker exam today!!! Believe me, no one is more surprised than me!! Sure, I studied. But I didn’t own the material. It was just SO MUCH TO KNOW. I can’t even convey to you all the different tools they were testing on, things I’d never even heard of, would crop up on questions, and I’d be like, WTF? I need to know this? Or WHY do I need to know THIS? It just went on and on. I was feeling quite a bit of despair there at the end. I prayed for a miracle. And I believe I got one!
First of all, it’s a miracle that this training was even offered to me. Second of all, it’s a miracle that I decided to try, because I didn’t really believe that I could learn this stuff. After three + years off work and 40+ ECT treatments, I just thought my brain was fried, end of story. But something in me said, “Try.” And I can’t believe I did. And I can’t believe that this is the outcome!! To me, this just goes to show, you don’t know the end of the story. You might think, this is it, this is my life, Bipolar has me beaten (which is what I thought), but Life might have another message for you. And it might be really, really good.
So I am so encouraged. I still have a dwindling bank account, and a car for sale, but I have HOPE. And I have two high-value IT certifications that say that I can learn, that I’m a technical person, that I have abilities. And I have six baby bird eggs about to hatch! Life is good. I think, I actually believe, that I’m going to be o.k. And for that, I am extremely grateful.